Things Fall Apart - Tuckoo

The hardest thing in writing this is knowing that you'll never get to hear it
knowing that you'll never truly understand
I am remember spending countless days with you
days that I thought would never end
maybe you never truly felt the same way that I did
remember when we used to ride your parents bikes all the way to Jeffrey Mansion?
you told me just how much I meant to you
but I couldn't believe in it

There's no use in longing for something that you cannot have
but please tell me there's hope in something that I've had before

and I am grateful for the consistency you have in your life
that's something that I could never give to you

If i'm not supposed to feel this way
please tell me why it's stuck in my head
it seems like everything I do isn't enough for me to feel the way I felt
when I was close to you
How many drives down the same road will it take to not feel numb to my surroundings?