Things Fall Apart - P.S.

Are you proud of me?
The son you raised?
A father you should be, leaving me for days
A father who was there but so far away
The use of a substance that took you from me

I just needed you here
but you couldn't stay
constantly choosing it over me
was I not the high that you need?
the home you left so empty and the sons that needed you dearly
are just empty memories that will soon fade

Our lives you affected in so many ways
I'm sorry that I wasn't good enough for you to change
I tried getting through to you constantly counting down the days
until I could be a part of you again.

My father who I looked up to
I needed you
but the substance had you to far gone
you were to far gone
please come back to me
I need you to stay
I hope it makes sense one day