Scarlet ..... - Why?

why do I feel this way
he did not leave me
so why is the happy bliss gone
why do I feel like I fucked this up
why am I so upset that I’m shaking and throwing up
why did I do this
why can I just feel numb again
why do I feel pain
I know he didn't mean to
I could have argued
but then I’ll be hurting him
why am I doing this to myself
he did not leave no
so why do I feel like he did?
why did I lose the happy bliss?
why is it that now when I’m angry, sad, or depressed if I think of him it makes it worst instead of better?
god why did I write this he will read it and leave
please if you do read this understand I don't want to hurt you
I’d never forgive myself if I caused you pain
its just you’re the one I would tell everything, but I can't talk to you about this without hurting you
so I have no one else so I talk through this poem
please remember I’m sorry
I’m so sorry
I’ve done it I fucked this all up for the both of us

Scarlet .....

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