Immortal blank state - Negative Reaction

Why am i like this. What have i become.
I am being so immature, i feel dumb.
I could lose friendships over worthless subjects.
Never will i stop being negative, which uproars in conflicts.
Honestly i can't do anything right.
I am beginning to really dread each fight.
No i can't listen, nor can i understand.
My friends try to resolve things before the difficulties expand.
But my negative reaction just goes out of hand.
Someday i hope to fix this, until i can feel grand.
But for now, i will just stay like this in my negative reaction.
Until i can change that is, which could be an option.

[[written on March 18th,2009.]]

Immortal blank state

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