Immortal blank state - Gone

She looks out the window, waiting for her mother to leave.
As soon as she hears that car drive by she knows she is alone.
No one there, to watch her cry, or see her tears.
No one there…. To help.
No one to care. She thought someone cared but she could be wrong.
She looks at her phone.
No new text messages, nothing.
She texts the people she loves, but nope, no replies.
She says goodbye to everyone she loves and pushes the power button.
Walking towards the closet she sits there with dangerous tools, not knowing which one to chose.
Everything hurts. The pain cannot be explained.
Her stomach is where her heart is and her heart is where her stomach is, or so how it feels.
No one understands, no one can see, no one can know.
Everything is a secret. No one to be trusted but her own self.
Its all so hard to deal with, its all just to difficult.
She stares at the clock as it ticks away.
No sound but the tick tick tocking.
Its so quiet, and shes afraid.
Afraid of losing everything she loves.
Oh wait she already has.
The sound of the clock drives her to sleep, hopefully she never has to wake up again.

[[written on November 15th,2008.]]

Immortal blank state

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