Crystal Johnson - Asleep

Sometimes I wake up screaming
I'm terrified of dreams
They remind me of what I'll never have
And now I cannot sleep.

My dreams are full of happiness,
I'm sure I'll never see.
In my dreams we're a happy family,
I'm sure we'll never be.

In my dreams they'll love me,
With love I'll never feel.
In my dreams i'm smiling,
A smile that isn't real.

In my dreams I'm accepted,
I don't have to pretend
To be something I'm really not,
Over and over again.

I feel like I'm part of the family
I dont feel like giving up.
But, soon it all comes to an end
'Cause eventually I'll wake up.

Reality then consumes me,
Forcing me to see
That the only time I'm happy,
Is when I am asleep.

Crystal Johnson

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