Sean Irvine - My moment in hell

Hurt and self-worth nothing, but made me feel as though we had won.
That same disgust and sickening feeling
Looking down the dirty long barell of her loaded gun.
Who is she to say you cant be with me, and that this feeling cant go on.
For once I feel more like life’s worth living
And now for once I have found love.
Hold on…Love? ? ? ? ?
I thought I had already came to the concluision that love was just an illusion lost in confusion.
I try to comfort you instead of just run
As I stare down the barrel of your dirty gun
A hateful device Chamber ammo and shells
This moment in time is my moment in hell
Frozen for space to consume me forever
The cannon points at me but will fire never
I only know this because you know this too
'Stop fucking thinking and fucking shoot'

Your heart goes into overtime, pumping more blood
Your sweat starts to pour turning dirt into mud
Your pupils then dilate as you start to think
And the anger inside you climbs, fills to the brink
And then you realize your not mad at me
Emotions run over, filled self sympathy
You brought yourself to this point and I’m not to blame
What? Your going to kill me because you are insane?
You lower the pistol away from my head
A rush of relief on my body is fed
Your still thinking about all that I said
You stick the gun in your mouth 'bang' now your dead

The pistol reverberates against your hand
The anger then flows away from the man
In forms of your soul reaching back to the moon
The temperature of your blood seems way to cool
An emptied out carcass caresses the earth
The stars all then die out and a Mother gives birth
To an earth which becomes part of your soul
As you fade sink and loose control

Sean Irvine

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