Scarlet ..... - A Craving-Giving In (Revised)

why don’t I
just
give in
into this
craving

I know I will
give in
so why not
now

Save me from
days of worrying
eating myself
alive
trying to
decide
When I already
know
I will do it

I just don’t care
anymore
let them notice
me
for once
in my life

If they freak
its better
than not
reach

I guess
at least I
might
be noticed

Who am I
kidding
they will not
notice
an outsider
they may
start asking
questions

They will be
forced
to notice
me

The question is
will they
care

I already know
they won’t
even if they
notice me
what I have
done to
myself

I think it won’t
matter
because they
don't care
not about
me

What have I
done
to myself

Maybe they will
realize
if they would have
noticed me
before
instead of
ignoring
me so

I might not have
this craving

I might have
had the
strength to
fight it
yeah right
they will
deny it
all of it

They will say the
outsider lies
and never even
look my way

Why did I ever worry
about this
one in a hundred
chance they
will notice

Show me that
they actually
care

I worry about what
the outsider thinks
yes I do
but why
they know not
of me

They may think
they do

The truth is no one
knows me
not even I

Maybe after
this
after I give
in

I will find
myself

Just for me or
maybe this is
me

Scarlet .....

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