Petra Soliman - Help Me

i dont wanna cry
i cant let myself cry
the pain gets harder everyday
what am i to do
i need a cure
just a cure
i really need a cure
theres no where to find that cure
i dont know what to do
i dont know how to stop the collapse of my life
they yell at me
blaming me because its my life
its my fault now
its their fault they never gave me control of my life
they always had their way
they always told me what to do
i hate them
i just wanna die
i wanna rot alone
i wanna die
runaway
fade away
cant stop the tears from runnin down my face
wheres god
why cant anything go right
does it mean im a mistake?
isnt there any room in this world
for me to breathe
its so hard to breathe in here
everything is collapsing
their anger and hate
hurts my ears and brain
its a nightmare
please death wake me up
take me away
please
my head is about to explode
they wont stop yelling
they hate me
im a failure for them
take me away
im barely hangin on
im a disgrace for them
if i cut more
will death fall on me?
i long for a shoulder to cry on
i long for loving arms to hold me
i long for happiness and love
but i'll never get what i want
i need to die
got to fade away
theres nothing more to live for now

Petra Soliman

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