Nicole Settimi - The Aftermath

Oh my GOD
Just to FEEL
Oh my GOD
To feel REAL

What I would give
To be able to be
Somebody else
Somebody knew
Somebody with a purpose
Somebody with a clue

Somebody who wouldn't
Just simply surrender
Yes, here now I stand-
As Death's Number One Contender

Angry and spiteful
Filled with this venom
Poisoned and beautiful
These are the gates to MY HEAVEN

I have the lock
But, I also hold the key!
And, now I know that I-
Just will NEVER EVER BE;

Innocent and calm
Quiet and serene
Peaceful, and pleasant
No, that just isn't me.

So, I give up the battle
Hell-I surrender the war!
I'm over this now
What was I fighting for?

I know I'm not right
But, care? -I do little!
I stand at one end
No longer in the middle

I've lost all sight
I am back here
And, now I am worried
Yes, it is now that I fear

The end of this novel-
How it does it read?
Will I come out alive
Or will I just bleed?

Nicole Settimi

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