Monique Ornelas - My Scars

My scars are like entries in my diary,
you could tell how mad I was by looking at the deepened scars,
you could tell how many times i've hurt,
you could feel my pain, you could touch my past,
many end up confused ''why''
& the bad part is I don't know why this method,
I guess it was because I wanted to punish myself for everything bad happening,
I guess it was because somethimes this world felt like a dream, like I needed to know I was alive,
I guess it could also be because I was tired of not being in control of the emotional pain I felt,
the anxiety tearing me up inside,
the sadness destroying my life,
I wanted to be in control of something,
I guess I could go on and on why,
but the answer is really simple actually,
''PAIN''

Monique Ornelas

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