Melissa Ferrer - Schizophrenic

Am I really sick?
Not that ive been diagnosed
Schizophrenic
or even depressed for that matter.
Its just a war - in me
Not like most though
Not like good or evil
Or even balck or white with
enough space for a little grey area on the side.

My identites dont seem to want to agree...
Am I Melissa, or Missy?
One is kinda dull and boring and weak
while the other is popular, caring
and sleek.
One loves her family and
the other depises the term,
Missy only loving her friends,
Not her family in turn.
While Melissa is more balanced
and families always comes first.
But for the love of god i cant decide
which is worse.

Inside of me they both battle
and i think Missy is winning
Which kind of scares me cuz
wouldnt that be sinning?
Both believe in God
And both are smart
But Melissa's usually sweet
While Missy is more tart

But there is one more personality
that i forgot
Her name is Trinity and she is every
Good that Melissa and Missy cant top.
She lives Godly.... caring and sharing
She never once, tears dont the hall
Banging on walls
shes the one who couts to ten
Shes the one whos everybody's best friend
She is the one I wish to constantly be
If it weren't for dumb Melissa and stupid Missy.

So... Im Schizo i dont need a shrink to tell me that
Maybe its a phase...
It can be changed.
But some how i know
no matter how little one may show..
They will always be there...
Missy, Trinity, and Melissa alike
Or maybe they'll leave
and ill be able to choose just one to be......
PSYKE!

_Missy_Trinity_&_ Melissa

Melissa Ferrer

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