Matt Mercer - One O'Clock

My dearest friend, if you only knew, of the horrible restraints that have been placed upon me. For if you did, you would know, to stay by my side and never let go. It took me years, just to rearrange my mind, trying hopelessly for love to find. But in the end life is too cruel and so unkind

I'm sorry if I've kept you in shadow, but I promised to tell you tomorrow. For all this time the darkness has consumed the light, drown the last of my strength, leaving me here without a fight. I'm trying so hard to explain, but no reason can I find. The pain only becomes unbearable the deeper and deeper I begin to fall

I can't understand my suffering, and the guilt that echoes from within. My heart is left betrayed, by those wicked lies and foolish schemes, the only ticket out, is to locate my long lost dreams. Even my night abode is destroyed, by the nightmares left inside, I'm haunted every day, by this punishment undeserved

And just when I piece myself back together again, I break apart once more. I'm running and running, but I'll never reach the door. I take a look to the mirror, to check if I'm still here, but there is no reflection to greet me, as long as I am here. My escape route is becoming ever so narrow, I'm praying to god he will soon end this sorrow and hopefully I'll live again tomorrow

Matt Mercer

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