I Was Never Here

A sad and amusing song/video about getting old.

Song written, performed, engineered and produced entirely by John Ludi (off of the album Obsolescence). Song mastered by Erik Saari. Video by John Ludi (with a bit of help on some camera shots by John Fitzpatrick).

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(I may do a subsequent video for this song in the not-too-distant future as there was a whole character theme that I didn't include here due to too much footage.)

The words:

I Was Never Here

After all this time I've become a ghost...empty vessel, discarded host.
The young don't notice the pale gray men, just as single-minded as I was then.

It's like I've disappeared, faded and unclear...maybe I was never here at all.

My ambitions are old and tattered. My desires no longer matter.
My great dreams all lay in dust...corroding in my heart of rust.

Once a player upon the stage, now a footnote, a crumpled page.

Everyone just looks right through me, everyone just walks on by.
It seems that now I'm just a phantom, a silent specter with empty eyes.

It's like I've disappeared, faded and unclear...maybe I was never here at all.

I'm a song that's almost completed. Slings and arrows left me defeated.
Every line but the last verse sung. I once was vital, once was young.

Once a player upon the stage, now a footnote, a crumpled page.

Everyone just looks right through me, everyone just walks on by.
It seems that now I'm just a phantom, a silent specter with empty eyes.

I'm still here, I call.