Gangsta Sta - Change my journey?

I thought of dying again
Of feeling no more pain
For the sorrows within me
Just feels so all in vain

To have build a dream
On nothingness
To have hoped and loved
Was just insane

I want no more of this
I tell myself, to be
A board this uncontrolled train.

When can i get off?
Please tell me when! !
I’ve seen enough, i’ve hurt
Enough.
Let my cries not be
In vain! ! !

Gangsta Sta

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