ESPN CHICK - Why Should I Bother?

Sorry for all the trouble I've caused
I guess I will never be good enough
And every thing will always be my fault
In years to come I hope things get better
But deep in my heart and soul I know that they won't
I'm sorry for being a burden
Guess I always knew I should have died
And left all this pain behind
Should have known I'd be better off six feet under
I know every thing I do will never be good enough
So why should I bother
Why should I bother even trying
Should have given up like all the others
But I don't know if I want to live or die
In my mind I do want to die
But deep down I want to live
Either that or I'm scared of going to hell
Can't find the answers to my questions anymore
And everyone I thought I could count on
Says all the wrong things
But what else is new
I tried to trust someone but I can't even trust myself
And I'm tired of being here in this town
Hate it here thought everyone knew
Feels like no matter how hard I try not to cry
Theres always something there that makes me shed some tears

December 31,2007

ESPN CHICK

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