Cheyenne Ashley - Confussion

Confussion is chockeing me
Squeezing out my life
Putting in my hands
A newly sharpened knife
Telling me to take it
And slit my throat today
But also telling me
To quickly throw it away
What do I do
Which side do I take
Which decision helps me
What decision do I make
I want to live a full life
Have kids and feel loved
Make a difference in peoples' lives
By giving them big hugs
But at the same time
I know I want to die
Because all the world is to me
Is one big fucking lie
So which decision do I make
Do I want to live or die
But no matter what decision's made
I'll still be thinking why

Cheyenne Ashley

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