Ann Thrope - Introductory Thing

i am:

a cutter, a pill-popper, a dealer, a liar, very determined, quiet, shy, self-deprecative (that the right word?) , scared, out-of-control, dramatic, gullible, afraid, terrified, in love, in need of coffee, needy, afraid to love, easily tricked, a chronic hair-dyer, afraid of change, excited for change, an avid book-reader, a poet, an artist, a cheater, a friend, a bad friend, a good friend, a best friend, loved, a horrible girlfriend, the best damn girlfriend you'll ever have, a christian who wavers on her faith every day, an avid 'cusser', a wanna-be wiccan, numb, bi-polar/manic, schizo, addicted to cutting, afraid of cutting, in love with cutting, in control with cutting, proud, humble, ashamed, afraid for you, afraid of you, scared to be with you, gay, naturally blonde, dyed black/brown/blue/red/blonde/purple, afraid of the dark, afraid of open spaces, afraid of parks, in love with park trails, a fan of getting lost at Veteran's Park, sensible, honest, brutal at times, a virgin at making out.

i am NOT:

happy, insane, depressed, anxious, excited, forgettable, forgotten, alone, unloved, hated, wanted, unwanted, needed, loved, believed in, trusted, stable, forgiving, angry, able to hold a grudge, mad at the world, suicidal, in control, over cutting, over kortney, crushing on missy or katie, afraid of you, in control right now, afraid to admit my mistakes, ready to open up, ready to be real, sure of who i am, straight or bi, sure of what i want, ready to be with anyone, willing to let anyone kiss me again, dating until i'm sure i can give my full attention to that person, interested in boys, sure of what i am not, sensitive, loving, appreciative, spoiled, doted upon, like my sister, perfect, a good cellist, a good guitarist, a good singer, a good daughter, a good sister, a good girlfriend, a dyke, a femme (eh?) , decided, certain.

Ann Thrope

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