Ana xxx - prayer

even though I know the result
I pretend that I don't and I try again
people said..and still every day..
humans mustn't give up and success..
is there where every problem is..
I believed that and still pretending that I don't know
I'll fail..
is the only taste I've known..
I try aging to get upon my feet..
I'm sick of this hole to live in
I want to do better in my life
to give
to live
and to let live..
I try again..
depression lured me into all this
the hot scares scare me..
the sign that I failed again..
I pray inside for god to give me strength
not to give up and stand..
but weak I'm still
and every sign demanding to take the rest
what days have left of me
to go..
still I'll fight, and I'll pray for god
to make me happy
to laugh
to feel secure and hell still holding me
I want to be
but life is not that easy to fight against
I'll fail again
I'll cry
I'll cut the last area that I've ignored
and I'll pray
every day
for god to give me strength
and for my heart not to feel
but to be still

Ana xxx

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