Ana xxx - Weakness

Run fast to my room, the only home
At the corner, hold me tight cold walls
I never been huged,
My blanket, warm me up
I'm cold, and numb
I've never felt safe
My childish fears still huanting me,
All the momories when i was eleven,
Where can hide from these thought! ?
I cover my face with my hands, yet it pierces them and
here this night, begins the sleep,
No tears fall down my cheeks i never know how to cry
Fears of loss, of being left alone, force me to die
The room seems unknown for me
my home are you rejecting me!
were can i hide from my thoughts
My diary is useless, i cannot trust the papers,
They will speak up all the dry tears to the space
Wind blow softly, killing them telling my secrets to thw world
i fear myself, i know i can do so much harm,
I'm chocking with pain, lies at my throat, all the screams unheard
Curtains don't open up i fear ro face the world,
i hate the sun, the way it smiles like things can be ever fine
Childish fears go away, i have no support, why do you want to attack me? I'm weak, alone with no shoulder to rest my head on
My feet are bear and the way is long,
yellow glass, broken glass, i cannot walk, I'm not that strong

Ana xxx

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