Ana Podarevska - Monster

you've finally melted into what i hoped you were underneath.
and it's so messed up that i can only love in reaction to abuse,
i can only stay attached if i know i'm being used;
an outlet for anger or for input of lust,
what used to be selfless was broken like trust.
i'm sorry i forced you to grow into this monster
but i can't love what i don't deserve.
i'd rather be cowering in a corner, my psyche slowly falling apart,
then living and knowing day after day
that i'm the one breaking your heart.


[April 30,2007.12 days after the fact.]

Ana Podarevska

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