Amy Carmichael - Self-Destruction

I know your secret.
You told me yourself.
And those grades you attribute, to me and my help.

You work all the time, you have commitments to list,
Your lack of time for me leave me a little pissed.
I've dug you out, accepted your flaws,
Now i need YOUR help, help without that pause!
Do you find me a burden? that you hesitate so?
Well i don't need you! i have drink and Blow.

So i dig myself in and blame everyone else
And you won't understand why I do this to myself
See, i can't bear the way everyone's let me down,
Sometimes, beside you, I scream without a sound.
'When will they see? ' I ask before I Toke
They'll only ever see the surface, behind this smoke.

Amy Carmichael

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