Amy Carmichael - My Deception

I wish I didn’t love him so much
I wish I had him here to touch
I wish he wanted me a bit more
Instead of thinking im just some whore

I wish I hadn’t kissed him like that
I wish love were simple, cold hard fact.
I wish I hadn’t texted him today,
Hard to get is a tricky game to play

I wish his life didn’t make me so jealous
I wish I could feel like this about other fellas
I wish he didn’t live in a totally different place
Though in my head I see only his face.

I wish I had told him he was the one
I wish I’d let him know when this love had begun
I wish I could just make up my mind,
And know whether to be cruel or to be unkind

I wish I didn’t miss him like this every day!
I wish someone closer would make me feel this way,
I wish I hadn’t purposely led him to believe
That I’d find it so easy to simply leave...

Amy Carmichael

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