wild fire - Parentless Child (self reflection)

thoughts of my life keep me awake
tonight I must escape this strangle
I must escape it I need a father figure
I need one to hold me while I cry tonight

sadly there isnt one and I feel even more
reluctant to look upon the divorce from 4 years
into the past...damn there I go again thinking of
the past.... but he's gone half way across the country

I can hear myself cry now but he cant hear me and
im afraid no one can the past haunts and torments
I am not fatherless but yet I am he and I always
in two different worlds no one to mentor me

the rainbows ended and my dolls put away
when he screamed at me and my mother
he left with many angry last words and i've been
blamed for it all mother doesn't even care

i need a father and one will be him or at least
an older friend, teacher, guidance for me through
these years a fatherless teen I am a frightened child
the world is a supermarket and I am seperated from my parents

wont anyone claim me as their own or even
give advice once in awhile my name is A.J.
and I am this ugly angry girl..
I am the parentless child.

wild fire

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