Vassa Gostevsky - Disguised

I hear the little whispers
I feel the hopeful thoughts
I wander through the waters
looking for my rock

I listen to those temptations
I feel the sudden strength
I want to trust the source
teasing my deepest pain

I hear the delicious promises
I heed the haunting pull
I cherish the precious giver
that plays me like a fool

I bear the troubled doubts
I feel the honest fears
I start drowning in the darkness
that brings fourth the tears

I didnt wish for this fog
I dont need this rope
I dont want this torture
of being shaken of my hope

Yes, I wished for some light
Yes, I dreamed of the warmth
I even grew a little softer
allowing myself to be scortched

But I was caught dreaming
leaning a little too hard
I found myself falling
around your crumbling shards

I lay bruised and shaken
my dreams melting away
I start gathering up your pieces
now putting you together again

I stand taller now
I shake off the dust
I move forward again
vowing never again to trust

I ignore my desire
I fight the tempting call
I feel my heart crying
but determined to ignore it all

I've indulged my hopes
I've teased my dreams
I wont give in again
No matter what I believe

I wont listen to the whispers
I cant need your strength
as I continue repeating
No, I'm not doing this again

Vassa Gostevsky

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