Tiffany Wolf - Suicide Suspect

What is it that makes me feel this way,
Is it those harsh words that you say?
I cannot face these words any longer,
They only make me weaker and not any stronger.
This harsh pain seems to never give in,
But to take my life would be an eternal sin.
Please, God, help me keep myelf in this life,
One day, I wish to be a mother and a loving wife.
But if one day I can't bare this pain anymore,
God, tell me I can come through that heavenly door.
One day I hope to walk through the pearly gates,
And get to meet all the glorified saints.
As I walk through my front yard,
I realize baring this pain is too hard.
I hate having to feel this way,
Knowing the pain will never leave, it's forever here to stay.
Now my life has come to an end,
Only God knows what's around my bend.

Tiffany Wolf

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