Sugar Bear - Schizophrenic

What have I become?
What have I become?
They can’t see them, why can I?
Failing what’s reality to my eyes
Dealing with this all in my head
Life has become pure dread

Am I really a danger to them?
Am I becoming a danger to them?
If I could show them they’d understand
That I’m not crazy only damned
Constant footsteps on the floor
Constant banging on my door
Is really hard to ignore

I never asked to be so edgy
There’s no easy training to be ready
Often I wish I were blind
To never see them a second time
The medications only help me sleep
They never lead truly to peace

Locking me up, shutting me out
These padded rooms I should live without
Who could love someone schizophrenic?
Someone who’s always medicated?
I keep the lights on for my protection
Yet I still fear my own reflection

Please just believe me
So you’ll understand why I’m so clingy
To end it all, it’s hard to stay
No one should ever have to live this way
So alone, I’m always hiding
Because everywhere I go they find me
Everywhere I go they find me

Sugar Bear

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