Stacy Collinsworth - ~ tears-amphetamine ~

Sobbing- I blame paranoia
Arriving home to play mommy
& trustworthy daughter...

Why bother?

Everything unravels eventually
You can't fake a sweet melody
The fiddle in hell plays too loudly
My sunshine is suddenly cloudy

I know I love me
It's true
But, sadly...
Meth loves me too

I'm too terrified to admit
what Ive been denying

Continuously I cry
Not merely falling
Yet, dying

I so desperately want to scream, 'Save Me! ! '
But I'm done for (so CRUCIAL!)
I as in -No More- And it's official
That Death now awaits me

How can I disappoint my daddy...
Go to rehab
Leave Tyler
Who will rebel & behave badly...

..When I just want to get better!
Be cured of this disease
And live sober forever?

(I LOVE YOU!) Don't hate me,
Sweet Baby

If I leave, don't cry
And don't wonder why
I'm only getting help to return home
And live right

Be strong
I promise..
It won't be too long

But I'm weak & in need
My soul it's time to feed
And sobriety WILL BE
What becomes of me

Everything good I do
Sweet Tyler,
I promise-

I do it for the sake of US...
I do it FOR YOU

Stacy Collinsworth

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