shun patterson - Exhausted By Time

I'm exhausted by time and I feel contained
the silence in my tiny heart aches from pain,
bleeding through my ears from the sounds of life,
Makes me wanna grab my pistol and end my life,
but I look to the sky and wonder alot,
Does God think about me? Are am I just a dot?
That can't be true, God is not predjudice
but my philosophy in general has no evidence
That he rose again for all my sins, I really believe him,
Just my thoughts have me sinning over and over again...
Forgive me father, but I feel as if you do not like me! ! ! !
Warn me of my wrongs, give me a chance to do right,
Time move so slow, like a turtle in frieght
Exhausted by Time, I just might pull out this knife to end my life
But had to think twice
Looking back to the past and saying enough is enough,
I look at the clock and just wanna die,
Then I hung my head low for my lack of pride,
I have denied GOD TWO TIMES,
My life damned for sure now! ! ! !

shun patterson

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