shiny shine - letting go

we found out about 2 months ago
something that made me cry
the doctors said you were ill and we were in for a long battle
and through it all you always would say we are going to win this battle
than a few weeks ago
we almost lost you and i was scared to death
you pulled through but it still broke my heart
knowing how much pain you were going through
i felt so helpless wanting to help you so bad
laying in bed at night crying myself to sleep
because i knew we couldn't deny the truth... the end was coming near
it was something i hated to think about
the pain became more and more for you
and each day it became harder for me to know the pain you were going through
one day i talked to you and promised you i would come back
i told you how much i loved you and needed you
when i came back... u weren't there
i was told something that i never wanted to hear
i didn't know how to handel it
you had gone into a coma
i was terrified broke down and cried
then this week the doctor said there was nothing left to do
we have to let go
i cried and i said no please my baby is strong i know he can pull through
the conclusion was made the majority won
last nit we let you go
i was the hardest thing i have ever had to do
the worst feeling of my life
i hate moving on with out you
i know i should be happy becuase you are free of your pain
but i jsut wish we had more time together
and now talkin with your mom and sis it is so hard
especially your sister.. she is to young to understand and asks me all the time where you are. if your sleeping and i don't know what to do but cry

shiny shine

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/letting-go-115/