Sheena Schultz - Care to much

What is wrong with me,
Why do I put myself through this pain,
I need to not care so much,
All my caring go's to my loved ones,
All my family and friends,
But why,
None go's to myself,
There's something wrong,
No matter what it takes,
Even down to my last penny to get there,
Or it requires me not eating for a few days,
Why when one go's through hell,
I meet the devil him self,
And he gives me a punishment,
I'll do good for people,
But all I get is bad,
How caome I feel there pain,
I need to not care so much,
It's only hurting me,
Give good,
Recieve bad,
I need a new life,
Or maybe a new brain,
Or even a new heart,
No thats not it,
I need to not to care so much,
That's it,
But I don't know how,
Will I ever figure it out,
Will I ever change,
Tommorrow it may be better,
My body shakes for them all,
Whom is suffering,
Why do I feel it all inside,
I may never know!

Sheena Schultz

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