Scarlet ..... - Thought Wrong

I always thought it was ok
ok for my walls to be crumbing around me
for my world to be falling apart
I just thought oh well
for I live in a family that we are all falling apart
so I didn’t try to fight this
not for 4 years
for I thought it was normal
but I realized that it is not
for well I just went along
letting my world fall apart
everyone else was helping each other build theirs back up
putting things back together
making things right
for everyone but me
for I am still trapped in a pile of rubble
rubble of what my life should have been
could have been
I look out throw the rubble
I see the rest of my so called family
they are all happy together
they have fixed all their problems
for if I was out of the picture
their lives would be normal
they would be fine
so who am I to hold them back
for I am just a corruption
when my world fell apart
it stopped my corruption from spreading
at least to others
for it consumed me
so now I see how their life would be with out me
the mistake
the unplanned unfortunate event
this shell of corruption
I always thought they were the problem
they were at fault
but that is not true
for it is me
all me
for it is all my fault
I now must leave
leave and let them be
let them find happiness
for I never will
one problem though
where do I go
where can I go where I will no longer hurt anyone
no longer cause anyone pain
for I can not control this corruption within
I can not allow it to spread
spread to others

Scarlet .....

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