Scarlet ..... - Sometimes

sometimes
I wonder why
sometime
I wonder why I wasted all this time
sometimes I wonder why I just feel like screaming at myself
sometimes all I want to do is cry
all I want to do is scream
all I can do is be alone
sometime I wonder why I was always alone
for I wonder why I was always ignored
for I wonder why no one sees me
the real me
for I’ve been trapped behind this mask for so long
it is starting to become part of me
for even I at times now can't tell if it is me or the mask
and that scares me more than anything
for I do not want to become that mask
the mask of a nameless girl
a forgotten girl
I don't want to be that girl
sometimes I wonder if I am already that girl
for no one sees me
only people online hear me
because I don't have to be seen first
for they can't see me or my mask
sometimes I wonder where I would be right now
if I never found this site
if I never found that I could write ok poetry
for I’ve released so much and still have tones to go
I think I would have already exploded if I didn't find this site
if I didn't start to write
if I never found this way of releasing some of my pain
sometime I wonder how did I let this get this far
why didn't I ask for help when this all started
so long ago
maybe I could have prevented a lot of this pain

Scarlet .....

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/sometimes-83/