Scarlet ..... - i can't wait

my depression
turned to anger
my suicidal thoughts
turned to hate
my sadness
turned to aggression
welcome to the new me
I used to hold everything within
deal with all the problems
I used to fight to hold this family together
not anymore
for those are not my responsibilities
I am a child
or I was supposed to be
but I never was allowed to be
I always had to be the adult
the responsible one
the mature one
I no longer wanna be that person
I wanna be the child I was suppose to be
too bad I don’t know how
for my mind thinks way too seriously for a child
I hold wisdom beyond my years
and you can not just toss wisdom away
so all with out knowing
you robbed me of my youth
of my childhood
and still to this day
you do not see that
well I will no longer sit there silently
sure I can never have my child hood back

but from now on I will live for myself
I will not take the responsibilty of all those around me
I will no longer take your shit sitting down
for I will stand and fight
so next time you yell at me
you scream at me
I will scream back
I will yell back
and I no longer care if you get angry
cause guess what
I am angry
for I have been robbed of something I can never get back
all thanks to you
so you know what FU*K YOU
and damn I can’t wait for the next time you scream and yell
rant and rage
for I will do the same
and I can not wait to see your face
I can not wait......

Scarlet .....

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-can-t-wait-3/