Scarlet ..... - Fuel to the Flame

why do I bottle it all up
why is it that every time I get angry I bury it within
for when I do not release the anger it just grows
it just adds more fuel to my flame of darkness
the angrier I get the higher the flame raises
the higher it raises the more uncontrolled it gets
for I can no longer contain it once it grows past a certain part
the flame just rages on throughout my body
burning all it touches
leaving scars that can never completely heal
why is it that every time you say something to me that angers me
I hold my response in
in fear of hurting you
when yet by locking it inside me I do ten times the damage to myself
damn why is it that I worry this much about you
but you could care less about me
for my whole life I have held it all in
there is not one part on my body within that has not been scarred at least twice
for lately every time we get in a fight
you do not just cause more scars
you open up all my old wounds
I have almost lost my life for the flame had risen to high
and taken complete control
I could have released it to you
but instead I tried a different release
and that release almost cost me my life
damn I am sick of all of this
I am sick of putting myself last
when you all put yourselves first
please tell me how that is fair
for you are my parent, my family, my blood
and yet you could care less
you were told but a small part of my pain
and never once have you tried to talk to me
never once have you tried to but out that flame
instead you have grown to fuel it even more
for now with every word you speak
you fuel it
with every scream
you fuel it
every cry for help that goes unnoticed
fuels it

Scarlet .....

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