Scarlet ..... - done with pain

I'm through with pain
through with depression
it is time to move on
past all the pain
i have now moved on
on to anger
angry with myself and those who have hurt me
why the hell did i just sit ther and take it?
why didn't i fight them?
why didn't i fight the pain?
why didn't i stand up for myself?
when this all started
instead i kept the anger inside
i let it bottle up within
i kept the life twisted in tight
but since i am moving on
i am released from my depression
i find myself wanting to release everything else
all the anger
all the pain thats held within
i want to be free
free from it all
so i can be just me
me with no feelings from the past
free for the future
free to feel new emotions
but right now i need to release all of the feelings held within
the anger
the pain
the hurt
i need to release it soon
slowly
so i won't fight it
so the lid won't just pop off on its own
so everday from here on
i will twist the cap
and slowly start to release it
release it all
until i am free
free to be me
just plain old me

Scarlet .....

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