Sandy Vanity - no escape

I try to brath but when i try i choke
my ribs are in pain cuz they are broken
as my eyes change color to fit my mood
a dark black they turn a tint of red
lingers through
my body temperatur rises
and i wake up in cold sweat
this pain i feel is hurtiung me
baby why cant you see
look at me and explain
everything else is so messed up now
i only have myself to blame
i know i am a monster
and i know i am mean
but i have 2 hearts
they pump slowly but atleast are alive
they have been through so much
i dont think they will survive
i try to talk but no sound comes out
whats wrong with me?
cant talk and i cant breath
i wish my wrists were bleeding
then i wouldnt care cause maybe the pain
inside would be gone for a while
the blade against my soft wrists
sinking in deeper as i slide it across
this is the thing i crave so much
to see my blood drip and to
see this blow
i hate that you dont know how i feel
cuz your looking past me
not at me
so im invisable to you
the one who made me stay alive
the one who wanted me to live this life
my hearts are hurting
the pains in my eyes
i wish i could cry again
i got my happy ending but payed the price
a little twist of darkness
im stuck in a nightmare
a used to be dream
will things go back to normal
or will they stay the same?

Sandy Vanity

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