Ryan Joseph Holder - Empty

Do you know what it’s like
To feel empty inside
Not even sad
Or needing to die
When everything feels
Like it’s unimportant
When all of you memories
Seem quite distorted
When solitary
Is a fear
When you need someone
To listen...to hear
When every breath
Feels like a toxic
You feel your skin rotting
And everything mocks it
You try to fill
The emptiness
With food, liquor,
And drugs...but this? ...
No stick you can smoke
No pill you can pop
No needle injected
Will make the pain stop
No beer you can chug
No scotch you can shoot
The Vodka you swallow
Can't make you feel good
The pain it sometimes brings you,
As if you're going mad
The dreams in which you're dying
Are the best you've ever had
Your blood feels like dust
Your tongue feels like plaster
Your Mind feels like rust
And like everyone’s a b*****d
I'm tired, I'm empty,
I'm broken, I'm hated,
I'm lonely, I'm dying,
I'm feeling frustrated
It's okay...
I know everyone’s greater
...well whatever....
I'll talk to you later

Ryan Joseph Holder

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/empty-6/