rowan ahmed - Melancholy

saddness crowned with perfect grace;
desperation and injustice it embrace,
lying on the floor, lost and insecure;
no more negativity i can endure
walking lonely inside of haze,
through that foggy never ending maze...
seeking any face along the place
and familiarity through change i chase
soaking and drowning my self in the rain
totally hurt and drenched in my pain
while losing my mind seems perfectly sane
and self resentment is the only thing i can gain
traped in vicious circles of infidelity;
feelings lost all its authenicity and all its ability;
when there was no way back and you were inevitably gone
i sat there helpless watching my life, my actions become undone
so full of disgrace, stained with shame
my dreams are lame and no one but me to blame
the vicariuos life of mine is pure insanity
and the burden of my guilt to all remains vanity......

rowan ahmed

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