Rita Sasiene - Alone

Sometimes I feel so empty and alone,
So yearning to reach out and hold someone,
So desperate to hear a friendly voice,
So hungry for the love of anyone,
So afraid I might be turned away,
I hide my arms from those I long to hold,
From all the strangers in the world I live,
from all the magic their strange lives unfold.
I yearn to go to them, I try,
But fears, like monsters hands appear--and then
The fears begin to pound my wounded heart
And I retreat from strangers, cursing them.
Untitled You faded first while still before my eyes,
Then one by one the doors began to close.
Uncaring keys locked you and me apart,
Malicious fate-- so used to love disposed. Now and then-- through key holes or their cracks,
You came, and walls of stone melted away,
And in those moments when I had you back,
Tomorrow looked with envy at today. Last night you came in my remembering,
And all the pain provoking me inside
Just disappeared, and left serenity,
Fate grumbled and an ecstasy replied. Reality is jealous and won't let
Remembering be in my heart for long,
So while I love, and while my heart is safe,
I want to die, to lose you just once more.

Rita Sasiene

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