Ralph Acosta - Confused

I can see no way out,

that sick feeling creeping up from my stomach,
another lie just like your heart beating,
or so it seems.

Confused by whether I'm hurt by you,
or disappointed I once again trust you.

You were my best friend; my everything,
I walked away to spare the heartache once more,
but you found a way in,
broke down my defenses.

Confused by whether I'm hurt by you,
or disappointed I once again trust you.

None can see what you meant to me,
now there's nothing left to see,
just my vulnerability,
my bare and broken soul.

Confused by whether I'm hurt by you,
or disappointed I once again trust you.

Maybe it was my fault,
pinned my hopes on someone who seemed so different,
yet you turned out to be the same,
confirming my fears that I'm not worth caring about.

Confused by whether I'm hurt by you,
or disappointed I once again trust you,
I once again trust you,
I once again trust you,
Once again I'm hurt by you...

Ralph Acosta

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