Phinda Mkhonta - Since you left

This year has been hard and filled with sorrow,
I faced times when there was no hope for tomorrow,
Debated my purpose and reason for living,
Wore myself senseless, but still kept on giving.
I lost a part of myself and sank into sadness,
I gave in to hopelessness,

I must confess;
I still see your face in my dreams
It hurts and it doesn't help at all
I still want you in my life as crazy as that seems
I want you to catch me when I fall.
I still remember the first time we met
There was something so different about you
Your friendship was something I wanted to get
That smile when you said hi to me was so new.
Out of no where you called me on the phone
I wanted to sit there and talk to you forever
You were so new, so crazy and unknown
I just knew that our friendship would never sever.
Two years and we are barely holding it together
What happened to the way this all used to be
I never wanted you out of my life ever
I sat there for a long time pretending not to see.
We decided to go out and make it all all right
It didn't work out of course we knew it couldn't
We couldn't even really stand each others sight
It shouldn't end this way but it did and I shouldn't.
I miss you and everything you were to me
Ten years from now we will look back on it all
We will be older and finally be able to see that it was great that at a least once in a lives journey we do met.

Phinda Mkhonta

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