Onyx Mane - A Silent Killer

My eyes are swollen
and my nose is bright red
my cheeks are hot
and i wanna go to bed
i dont wanna be here, right now
i dont wanna be here some how.
the dreams where i'm dead are the best i've ever had
because the dreams where i'm still with you
are just really really sad.
the way you torture me and never stop
and the way that you tell me i suck
makes you feel like you're on top.
and when i try to catch my breath
you always beat me by a step
when you look at me with those eyes just pure hatred
is all i see
and everybody needs a break
when the nights are long
cause there's no guarantee i'll still be
here tommorow. and you, control my destiny
you control my actions
because for me there will never be any happily ever after
when i try to get up because i'm down all u do is taunt me
and kick me to the ground
as the time passes, as the clock flickers
and as i look at all my old pictures
all i can think about is how u've always been there
hating
watching
and secretly planning some way to destroy me
from the inside out
wanting me to implode
and then giving me hope just to kill all my hopes and
dreams once again.

Onyx Mane

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