Nicola Borasinski - Envious

It comes quietly, sneaking from behind
Silently moving, changing constants in time.
It shifts your perceptions and twists your mind
It begins to take control and leaves you blind.

You refuse to accept that it has changed you.
You refuse to listen to those things true.
Ignoring everyone and everything around you.
You refuse to allow help to break through.

It holds you tight in its choking hold.
You can hardly breathe a drowning soul.
Struggling to release your blood turns cold
Its grip gets tighter, it has full control.

A burning in your stomach when they are nearby
You begin to hold back anger tears you want to cry
You know its not fair and you hold your head to the sky
As Hope, Love and Reason slowly seem to die.

You begin to go to extremes, you spiral into oblivion
The thing that changed you, to you is forbidden
It remains an untouched fruit, un-broken
The need you have for it an impossible burden

When she isn’t around you begin to grow anxious
Every move and action you make seems aimless
Faltering you stumble and are enveloped by the greenness.
You cant help it, you are irreversibly, utterly envious.

Nicola Borasinski

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