Natalie Taylor - confusion

So many feelings
Running through me
Staring at ceilings
Is this really happening to me?

Lost, Confused
Feeling internally bruised
Should I feel this way?
Should I put my feelings at bay?

Lonely, sad
Crazy, Mad
So confused
All my thoughts mused

Has this happened?
Or was it just a dream?
It CANT have happened!
God I wanna scream!

Is that right
Or should I cry?
Guide me to the light,
Why did you die?

It just doesn't seem real
How am I meant to feel?
I hide it all away
Until my mind cant help but stray

You were getting better
Each and everyday
My mind is a flutter
Yet I can't keep the thoughts away!

What am I meant to do?
I just haven't got a clue
I keep thinking it through until my face goes blue
I guess we were too dependent on you

Now we are all lost
In some kind of frost
We are nothing without you!

I hope I've made you proud
I even said it out loud
My brain starts to fizzle
And the rain is more than a drizzle

I miss you in my own way
I just refuse to believe
You'll forever be away
Am I being naive?

I love you Miss you xxx

Natalie Taylor

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/confusion-64/