mikayla carpenter - Alone

They all say that you're stupid,
but its like you never really care.
They all say that your annoying,
but you just lock away the pain.
You lock it all away,
until you can't take it anymore.
And all you want to so is scream until you cry.
You just lay on your bed waiting/wanting to die.
You can't take the feelings of hurt,
that you try so hard to hide.
When everyone thinks you're fine,
that's when it gets to you the most.
It gets to your heart and your mind,
and spreads throughout your body.
To the tips of your fingers and in the blood of your eyes,
Until you feel the tears stream down your face,
and a feeling unknown takes over.
A feeling of anger mixed with something short of sad.
You just tell yourself not to think about it,
because it can't be that bad.
You hide under the armor that you've tried to keep stable,
but everytime you come out,
you feel as if your unable.
Unable to have fun with people you thought were friends.
Unable to open up and tell them how your life has been.
Unable to let them see the you that no one really knows.
Unable to be yourself in the middle of the chaos they call the world.
Your just.. what's the word?
Alone.

mikayla carpenter

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