Melvyn Mohan - Close

It’s a cold stabbing feeling that holds your body so tight in its grip that you feel your life slowing down. It all seems to be a blur and pointless now.

It seems worthless. How do you leave? How do you stop loving yet you have loved all your life? It seems pointless. Love is too harsh and I cannot try anymore.

I don’t want to feel anymore. I don’t want to feel anything anymore!

I seem to be constantly lost in a daze between two places that I wish to forget. I need to be free, but how do I break the curse that haunts me?

I seemed bound to an unwanting reality where present time has no meaning of love. I feel lost here. Love does not grow here nor does it lay in gentle and peaceful embrace of its image.

I stood in the darkness hoping to see my reflection in the mirror, but I knew I was not there.

I lost myself. I had forgotten everything I had and refused to believe what I have become.

Maybe it’s best I don’t see myself because it will mean that I will have a soul.

Melvyn Mohan

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