Melissa Ferrer - Waiting

Standing at the window
Watching
Looking in on my life
Waiting
For something to happen
For something to be
Something unexpected, Eventually.

Then you walk in and I see once more
That maybe my life wasnt always such a bore,
That all my life maybe I wasn't Depressed.
Maybe I wasnt always such a mess.

So I sit there waiting....
For you to be mean
For you to be obscene
But as I said before
Maybe I wasnt so unhappy
Maybe once I was just me.

Watching, Waiting
For something to change
But I notice its all staying the same
Maybe things werent so lame
Maybe once I did feel tame
Did feel cool,
Did want to go to school.
Maybe once I didnt feel like a fool.
Maybe I wasnt always a tool.

Waiting for something to happen
Whating for me to see
Why I acted so bitter against everyone
Who was there to comfort me.
Wait Waiting to look bad
Waiting for something bad to happen
So I can Rant Scream and Rave
I guess it was so that I'd never have to admit

I'll Alway Be Waiting....

Melissa Ferrer

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