Matt Reyes - Explosion coupled with Self-Destruction

Some say that ignorance is bliss,
But it has caused me to miss
The greatest thing to happen to me,
The greatest thing that I could see.
The thing I missed, that thing was you,
Now I don't know what to do.
To win your heart, perhaps I can,
But now you have another man
Pushing me out of my place
In your heart please don't erase
me from your beautiful mind
To you I shall always be kind.
Fate, you've dealt me a cruel hand
And your absence I cannot stand.
Without you I shall always cry
Noone will love you more than I.
In my heart you'll always stay
My bestest friend, I'll be okay
Without your passionate wonderful love
My beautiful Angel, my Green-Eyed Dove.
Perhaps I'll draw a better card
Till then I'll remain on my guard
Waiting for that day to come,
Oh how could I have been so dumb
Not to see before my eyes
That I was losing you, what a surprise.
'I'll be okay' that's a lie,
Or maybe not I don't know why
I can't figure out my feelings inside
Of my soul, oh they all hide
Behind each other
What I think is one, is another,
Oh they confound me so
Should I stay or should I go
Insane once more, once again,
Tell me, tell me bestest friend
How it is I truly feel
This pain, this pain is so unreal,
That it rots me to my core
So much that I fall to the floor
That's flooded with my empty tears,
My false hopes, my true fears.
Without you I'm nothing this is true,
But I want you to be happy too.
I wish I were a lonely puppet,
But then again I am one, yet
Unlike this tiny plastic doll,
I have a heart, my one downfall.
My sadness will build up and unfold
Until I finally explode
From my feelings that contrast,
And cause destruction to come fast.

Matt Reyes

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