Lonnie Hicks - Forbidden Chapter Two:

Chapter Two

She found herself making preparations even before the fishing trip. She knew what she was doing but she hid it from herself. She went to the mall and bought the items she would need without letting herself acknowledge what she was planning. Maybe she did know, maybe she did not know but it was down deep in her mind and did not come up to where it entered her everyday mind.

She went to the cabin for two hours and cleaned, prepared things, saying to herself this was just routine. Yet even in the cleaning there was purpose which one part of her mind knew and one part of her mind did not know the purpose of her activity there.

She had gone to the catalog and surveyed her choices there and found one she fell in love with and took her household savings and sent off for it.

That act was so deliberate, so clear that it, from that point, made it clear even to her other self what see was doing, not what specifcally she was doing but what she wanted to be involved in what she wanted to do.

It was not going to be a one time thing. Her mind was settling on it being something she could do again and again if she liked.

She got really excited with the idea that she had freedom to do it again and again. It was liberating. It made her feel like a girl again, no not a girl, like a woman.

By fishing day she raised her hand to wave goodbye brimming with excitement.

Lonnie Hicks

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